Painted faces.

May 2012

the fight we couldn’t quite recover from.

it’s funny.

How you think i’m a ticking time-bomb. How…i could be mad at you for something you didn’t think deserves me getting mad at. But look at you. You are getting mad at all the little things you could just verbally told me not to do. today, you practically cursed someone who is near and dear to me. I could’ve have gotten mad, flip tables and tell you to screw off. I was That shocked, I didn’t even know what to say. I didn’t choose you over the matter, I just chose not to project my reaction.

And why is it different. you talking to your friend’s girlfriend. Trying to resolve her problems. Then telling me about it. Ain’t it the same. As you talking to other girls. then telling me about it vs. me talking to guys then telling you about it. Why the double standards?

and isn’t it hilarious. that. you care so much about trying to solve other people’s problems. when we have our own. that’s the thing wrong with people. don’t run away from a fight to fix other people’s knowing you can’t lose in their fight. face your own. even if you’re not losing there, you’re losing here. you are losing us.

and another thing. isn’t it funny that you care so much about other girls’ problem when you’re not in a relationship. then after, you make it seem like every issue she has drives you crazy. as if she’s mental. And you’re losing it. Everyone has issues. And you’re gonna be seeing other girls as a fragile thing. Something that you need to protect and help. But in our relationship, we’re equal. you expect that much from me and i think it’s stupid. They can take this away from you. But i’m the one with the choice to make us last.

i don’t know what to think. all i know is. if this goes on for long, i’d go crazy

December 2011

Was it so hard? Was it so hard to say “I know what I want. And what I want is you.” if you felt it at all. You would’ve been able to say it. If you felt it at all. You wouldn’t have stuck to “I don’t know.” and now, I don’t feel it for you anymore. And it’s just grand.

Isn’t it ironic?

The people whom you would consider as a low-life hooligan —- Cheat, steal and harm people. are probably the people who does those least. You see, people think they have the best ability to lie. As they grew up in an environment where they are put up to many situation that tempts them. And sure enough, they probably did. But they are probably the most judicious liars in the world. Because they been through hardships. They know how painful it is to be lied to just as they have lied to others. So psychologically, they do it less because they know that it’s bad.

Whereas people that consider themselves to be superior grow up in a protected environment. Where all “evils” are kept from them. They think they have seen the best in life. What makes the cream of the crops. Little did they know that their parents protected them through hiding the truth. Earned their status through deceiving. And created the image of what was thought as a low life through lying. Hence they grew up in an environment where cheating, stealing and harming people are made so natural to them. They grew up on such a toxic environment thinking that they are superior in every way. Even morally.

But you fail to recognise that these people have a heart. Much bigger than yours. You’re blinded with the good life. And you don’t see that these people care more for the people they love than any of these “superior” people can.

You see,
moral superiority can’t be bought.
Love. Can’t be bought.
And that is the only ability the arrogant people have —- financial abilities.
But money can always be earned.

And the arrogant would always be judgemental, low EQ, ignorant; hence stupid people I’ll ever know.